Monday, October 15, 2007
This Is It.
yes, this is it. on the 15th of october, 22.35pm, post number 727, my last entry for public blogging. this blog has been gd t me, a nice ranting tool, and a tool i use t express stuffs i wasnt able t in person. thank you blogger. i may or may not be back, but if i do, it wont be any time soon. until then.
will curse of october be gone tgt with this blog.?
10:33 PM
saddest thing on earth.?
get drunk on beer. im trying v hard t type properly. bear with it.
Friday, October 12, 2007
ZAO AN.
geez.! im up early again. but rmb i said i was super tired night last.? i went t bed at 11.30 or so. couldnt sleep so i watched my bro play dota till 1.? went back t bed and couldnt fall asleep still.! freaking hell, the adrenaline from ice skating was keeping me fresh awake. and i think the last time i was the time one my phone was 2.15.? anyway i woke up at 7.15 today. -_- im thinking im gonna be super tired tonight.
anyway. afterall all e tossing and turning and thinking last night. i would say daredevil would be the last word í would use t describe myself. LOL. i rmb how i took 20 min t jump off the board for leap of faith during sec 3 camp man. yest's ice skating sort of further empahsized this pt. well u can call me hum ji la. how sad.
and i also realised how much i think. not as in think too much tt kind, although i do admit sometimes i do. but i think a lot esp when the next big step/thing/whatever activity is coming up. like before start of a new sem, before hols, and before some other things la. its like how i picture myself t be, and how i'll be spending and dividing my time when the sem starts, or when e hols start. picture perfect. but it has never been the way i picture it to be. well basically most of the time i picture myself playing hard, and working hard. but on EVERY occasion im either just playing hard, or just working hard. actually e way i picture a new semester is kinda scary and like super no life. it usually consist of work, sch, go home study, have dinner with parents everyday, sleep early, score gpa 3.4 and above. LOL. most of the time its just have dinner with friends everyday, sleep super late, never study until the day before exams, gpa 2.smth. in my picture perfect thinking, friends are never in the picture. i wonder why. cause ....... but anyway, its never the case.
geez. i havent bathe. ok bye. anyway its not abt whether u bathe or not before u go t work or go out i realised. if u smell nice (Kar Mun) then by all means don bathe i dont mind la. but if u freaking smell (CHINA BITCH WEN WEN) then shouldnt u bathe.? and for ppl who DO NOT BATHE BEFORE THEY SLEEP *er hem lyn* YOU SHOULD BATHE BEFORE U MEET ME. ITS A MUST. anyway thanks for alwaya bathing before u meet me when i ask u to. haha. ok just 10 min t bathe. bye.! u prob wont see me blogging till monday unless i wake up early again. heh.
8:25 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
off day well spent. (=
today's my best off day ever. it was great. couldnt have been better.
so i woke up 1 hour earlier than i was supposed t, as usual. and then i took 45min train ride all e way t jurong east t meet e rest for ice skating. my virgin ice skating experience was fun. although i was like e most lousy skater, and most timid, but then 2 hours passed quickly. first half hour was dreadful, i kept cursing under my breadth why i took 45min train ride all e way t humiliate myself, but time passed pretty quickly after tt. i wouldnt mind skating for another hour, really. i should say learning t skate. so end of e day im still not v stable, but i see more 45min train rides t come. really. million thanks t ariel, Kar Mun, and shane for helping me out.! (=
after tt headed down t bugis, tan quee lan st, not for tian tian huo guo, but for indulge. pretty cool place, nice ambience and pretty nice food. din had wine cause i dont think i can afford spending too much on food stuffs alr man. then we headed down t haji lane, finally.! nth much but its a pretty cool place. can mark haji lane off my place-to-visit list alr. then went back t bugis t find a place t chill, and get some drinks.
went terra cafe. drinks were quite affordable. and the guys were laughing over pussyfoot. wad pussyfoot without the foot, as wet as possible. -_- ok so headed home after tt. quite early, but i was kinda tired alr. in conclusion today was a superb off day and i really gt my batteries re-charged.
congrats t wenny.! u've graduated.! and congrats xinny, u're graduating tmr.! and both of u havent tell me what u wan for ur bdae pressie.!
ok off t sleep. nights.!
10:56 PM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
C&C.
my horoscope says "ur mind is open wider than usual- which is saying quite a bit. someone close t you is holding back smth he or she thinks you do not want t hear, so let the person know you are ready for anything." ok this has got me thinking the whole day. haha. but seriously, if u think u're close, then u can say cause i'm willing t listen. that is if u think u're close, cause i do practise selective hearing at times.
benchmarks. the word benchmark simply means compare t me. like how we set benchmarks for everything in life, sounds nice, but basically we're just comparing. i've learnt some 2 yrs back tt some things cant be compared. in every situation its gonna be different. i wouldnt say i've stopped setting benchmarks, but i dont as much as i used t. i just wish ppl dont benchmark me against others. everyone is different. thanks.
so many things that im unhappy with about supervisor. but im lazy t type them out all again so forget it. he's unbearable.!!! ugh. he needs t learn how t give and take, and that subodinates today need empowerment. I NEED EMPOWERMENT.!
finally its off day tmr.! thankfully supervisor's not working for e next 3 days after i come back from my off day or else i'll die man seriously. esp full shifts with him.
today was a pretty easy day i would say. smoking wise. as in i didnt feel as bad as i felt e past two days. im hoping tmr's gonna be a lot easier with friends around. i've gt my fav companion with me all the time-mentos strong mint. LOL. i think i've had more than 2 sticks of mentos just today.
has a gls of house white today. vin de pays. but still equally lousy. geez, the wine was kinda weak for me.
im not tired, but i've gt nth much t do. yawns.
11:36 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
bear with me pls, i beg.
im trying very hard here. it has never been so difficult before. because this time im doing it from internal motivation, all coming from within myself t stop smoking man. not because of any other people, its just purely self discipline. and boy is this tough. im glad i've lasted for 48 hours alr. but its gonna be really hard keeping this going. i just hope im gonna succeed this time round. im hoping i can quit totally, like not even social. but seriously its gonna be really tough, i can feel it alr, the moment i told myself im gonna do it. freak why did i make myself do this in the first place. fuck.
finally got my pay today. and i treated myself t a glass of house red after work. and boy does it suck. no volume at all, no wonder its vin de tables. NTUC has AOC wines for 30+, cheap huh.? at least i felt better after e wine. and its good t drink a gls of wine a day yea.?
and i found out zoe's getting paid 7 an hour, but im not gonna request for 7 too cause i want them t raise my pay cause they think i deserve it not because i asked for it. and im not trying t quit smoking cause matthew said he'll raise my pay if i do. who would be happy getting a pay raise for doing smth good that's gt nth associated with ur work. not me surely, as much as i need the money.
suddenly i feel i kinda miss chatting with jeremy teo. esp sec 3 times when we were pretty close. of course i no longer hold a grudge against justin or jasmine, but i wish so much that he didnt know, we prob would still be really close friends now.
once again, bear with me pls. if u've alr been giving in t me, just cont pls. esp now. i really need it. thanks.
11:16 PM
kim slaps ariel with a trout.
geez.! ARIEL CHIA IS ITTERATING THE SHIT OUT OF ME.! but she's just so aborable. miss hugging u. as usual. see u on thurs.! (((=
12:13 PM
Monday, October 08, 2007
the wonders of alcohol. feels great when u're all hgh and nth seems t be bothering you doesnt it.? and this can be acheieved without smoking. all the more it is good. so i had a couple of shots of D.O.M because that's the only opened alcohol i have. and 3 cans of tiger. pathetic i know. but enough t get me a lil high and im satisfied. and feels so good t just let all ur emotions come out just like tt. i need t watch a movie that can make me cry like a fucking loser. any introductions people.? i wanna cry till i have no more tears. bet that'll feel great.
10:05 PM
power struggle.
im no where near the wish i made. and it was a super strong internal struggle i had just now. with the help of 2 other ppl, i managed not t smoke today. and i was feeling freaking uncomfortable. not because im addicted or wad. it just feels like bathing but not washing hair.? urgh.! i hate this feeling.
sometimes i wish i can treat some ppl nicer. sometimes i wish i can not treat some ppl too nice. most of the time i just wish ppl can be normal.
im supposed t be in a game with cas and wn, but freaking hell la. im freaking pissed, but i dont know why im so pissed also. it has t be the october thingy. will someone pls make this october seem like a better one pls.? i think i NEED this october t be a good one, badly.
i really felt like leaving the house just now. for a small thing. i could use some alcohol now.
URGH.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck.
8:12 PM
october's a mnth of headache.
i think october's a mnth of headache. esp when my dearest yingwen and huixin arent giving me any clue of what they want for their bdae pressie. (does this make u feel guilty enough t start thinking.? LOL)
beside that. i just think past octobers has never really been too good.? and i somehow feel this october isnt that good either. at least until now there hasnt really been smth really good that would make me change my mind about octobers being bad mnths.? and somehow i've got a feeling this october thing is to stay.
so, we've got another 2 full weeks before sch starts. (that's not e case for u lyn, u've got just one week. awwww...) erm, holidays are gonna be over. i wouldnt say i wish holidays wont stop, cause i kinda prefer doing projects over working.? and its so much easier t catch up with friends.
blogging in the morning feels kinda weird cause i usually blog at night. and im only blogging now cause i was too tired last time and i woke up too early this morning. but ANYWAY, cause i was too tired t blog last night i decided t write in my diary. and i checked, the last time i wrote in my diary was 11th july. and it was kinda freaky la some things. abt this diary thingy.
i hope i get my pay today man.! and i hope mummy comes home soon with my porridge cause im freaking hungry.
9:37 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
well oh well. i didnt feel like working today. up at 6 in the morning and there's nth at home t eat. and im kinda sick of eating bread with chesse or ham or whatever spread there is available. so i went t my mum's stall for fresh pipping hot chee cheong fun and porridge. (= i think this morning was the second time i saw my mum this week. life of a no lifer.?
so anyway kitchen air con wasnt working today. it was freaking hot. we had a thermometer in the kitchen and it read 36.6. FREAKING HELL HOT LIKE PANG SAI. whenever i step into the kitchen i can feel myself sweating like fuck alr. i could really use a beer man. esp when there are 3 cans of tiger in the bar's fridge. geez.
so supervisor pissed me off the moment he came. luckily he came at 1 and i end work at 2. the moment he came he was wtfing this and wtfing that. well wtf are you wtfing here and there the moment u come.?! it was fucking itterating man i tell u. after scolding me with no respect at all for me. 1.30. he immediately changed his tone cause he had a favour t ask. supervisor: kim, you might need t stay back. me: i cant stay. supervisor pretends he didnt hear that. 2pm supervisor: kim, they cook for u alr.? me: im leaving at 2 wad. supervisor: i thought i told u be prepared t stay.? me: i thought i told u i cant stay.? supervisor (with a fucked up face): kim, go punch card now. THANKS MAN, MORE THAN GLAD T.
fuck sia. everytime wan me t stay then i stay. wan me t leave than i leave. think i wad sia.? well fuck you. YOUR DEAREST YALAM PART TIMER IS LATE AGAIN. YOU THINK I CARE THAT U GUYS ARE GONNA BE DAMN BUSY WITHOUT ME.?! HELL NO. NOW FUCK THAT.
so i complained t julian e moment work ended. i told him i cannot stand supervisor's attitude, cause the moment he comes he's wtfing this and that. julian said ok, he'll talk t him later. why am i not surprised spa ppl in the office, julian, china bitch wen wen, and sous chef daniel all do not like him. why oh why. and i asked for a beer from julian cause when we put the thermometer out in today's sun, it read 41.4, and it was freaking hot. it was crazy, i couldnt walk t the bus stop in that kinda sun so i cabbed home.
oh did i mention matthew was such a cutie today.? (((= all smiles today man, he's in such a good mood. i think his goatee makes him look sexy. he asked if i've quit smoking. i said no. he said he'll increase my pay if i do. i asked if he meant it he said yea. now how cool is that.?! some big shot boss and cares so much for a part timer. and then julian complained why isnt he getting such kinda incentives.? so i guess its just for me.? (=
half time's over. im thinking its gonna be 1-0. heh.
8:43 PM
I <3 MYSELF
kimberly
25.10.89
volleyball
beach
sea
waves
sand
sun
trees
mojito
sex on the beach
movies
kbox
ang mohs =D