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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
daMn sLeepY..

the alarm clock rang at 4.. i was disturbed from my sleep.. woke up to turn it off.. then another one went.. and then the one on my fone.. den my mum came in to wake me.. finally.. i reluctantly climbed out of my bed.. out of my cozy world of dreams.. all for the sake of completing my EM TYS.. hahax.. this is something quite amazing.. since i always complete my homework on time.. maybe not for all subjects.. but definitely for maths.. hahax.. it was was given 2 weeks ago.. haix.. guess i've really been slacking too much eh.? hahax.. but i still managed to finish all 15 paper 2 qns.. that's quite an amzing feat eh.? hahax.. anyway.. by the time i completed was already like 5.50.. quite late le..

took a fast bath.. 20 min.. lolx.. even though it may be considered long to some ppl.. it is already oni 67% of my normal bathing time.. hahax.. wanted to do some chemistry since i still had time.. but i cant figure out how to do.. it was mole concept.!!! hahax.. got ready and headed to school instead.. lolx.. reached school around 7.08.? hahax.. quite late.. since i've been arriving at 6.45 for the past term.. hahax.. but i've got nothing to do there arriving so early.. and it would be awkward.. u guys know why.. and 2 ppl sitting down there.. not a word for either one.. waiting for a third person to break the stillness.. which most prob be liwen.. arriving the earliest of the rest of us.. why make life so difficult for everyone.? juz dont see each other and all would be fine..

speaking abt making life so difficult for u guys.. haix.. really sorry.. u know i dont wish for this.. but i'm sorry.. really dont wish to defeat the purpose.. hahax.. anyway.. there's already nothing much left for me to wanna reversing whatever it is.. i dont believe in who i used to believe.. maybe not totally not believe.. but as least half the belief i had is gone.. utter dissapointment.. i've lost my faith in you.. everyone knows that u dont know how to start a conversation.? yea.? HAHA.!!! then i must have been the worst friend of all to not know that.. having known u for 4 yrs.. and i didnt know that.! its amazing isnt it.? but it seems i see you easily chatting up a guy.. much less a girl.? cant help feeling disgusted..
however.. gotta admit what hui xin said was true.. abt the "i also cannot much less her".. yea.. its true.. but i think if there's really a determination.. nothing can deny it.. there's no such word as cant.! if it was down to me to get things moving again.. i might finally do it.. but as i've said in my ealier blog.. things would never be the same.. friends.? yea.. of course.. best friends.. prob no.. unless say 10 yrs down the road.. things change for betta..

i've got a point to make.. dont make decisions so fast.. dont decided that whoever is THAT important to you [friend].. you havent seen the rest of the world.. you've only lived what.? 16 to 20 yrs.? u think thats alot.? hell no.! its oni the first part of ur life.. you will most prob not meet THAT person in this segment of ur life.. even if u do.. it would take a few more years down the road.. prob a decade.. before you can safely say that you've found him/her.. believe me.. its true..

anyway.. realised ms soh was absent for the day.. which implies that i need no hand in the homework i woke up to do.. wow.! isnt that the best news you would wish to hear.? hahax.. damn suay.. anyway.. good that i;ve got it donw and over with.. or else i would have to rush again the next time round.. sch was kinda boring today.. ms liza didnt come.. no geog for the week.. since we would be missing friday's lesson since its a public holiday.. no goeg no a maths.. but got chinese.. haix.! why isnt it the other way round.? hahax.. i even made a small curse on chen mei li.. so we wouldnt have chinese lessons for the day.. hahax.. i take it back.!

after sch i went stright back home.. reached home at 2.35.. hahax.. skillz eh.? hahax.. porb the earliest i even reached home this yr.. ate the char siew rice mum bought for me.. talk talk awhile.. settle down.. and it was already 4.. how fast time passes.. hahax.. doesnt seem so during chinese lessons though.. hahax.. :( then slept with my mum.. in her room.. on air-con.. nice.! so shiok.. hahax.. woke up at 7.15.. hahax.. den ate.. uncle came.. just went home only.. hahax.. completed my EL homework le.. yays.! hahax.. later gonna do physics.. hope can complete.! :) now gtg le.. if not i dmn tired again..

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