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Friday, March 04, 2005
dunno..

once again at the end of weekdays, i'm here to pen my wonderful ( oh yea.? ) memories.. well.. not thats its happen so long ago that it has to be classified under memories.. hahax.. just that i used to blog everyday.. well the least one every two days.? this homework thing is really getting into me.. and having tuit 3 times a week isn't helping any bit.. mondays, wednesday and saturdays.. fortunately, traning has not began.. for i would be dead beat everyday..

considering the fact that i still have to help my mum during the weekends.. i've been helping my mum on both weekends for the past 3 weeks.. courtesy of my bro.. who has to work.. blah blah blah.. what makes me really mad is that last sunday, he didnt have to work and still asked me to go help my mum.. well its actually not helping coz i get paid for it.. but i rather not get the money.. i really need my weekend mornings to get some sleep.. to recuprate ( sp? ) .. like those wu shu ppl we see.. hahax.. i didnt used to like sleeping alot.. but i find myself trying to find time to sleep.. and sleeping almost the moment my head touches my pillow everytime.. i used to have to figit, toss and turn for abt half an hours b4 finally falling asleep.. guess thats what sec 4 life really is about..

i'm kinda guilty about thinking of not going to vball anymore.. part of it is beacuse my competition has already ended.. there is no point in going for traning anymore.. its when i'm are not training for anything.. there is just no power to drive me.. no power to make me wanna sweat, spike really hard, impress the juniors, do well and get the thumbs up from coach.. thumbs up from my coach is the greatest motivation to me.. but now.. doubt he even wants us in his team.. however, ms jeerah has told me to go for the trainings to show the juniors the ropes.. to demo, and stuff.. surely i do not want the team to disband, but i dont mind being sack at this moment.. for i have made an important choice of late to go to poly after secondary sch.. therefore no CCA points is required.. that's when the guilt comes in.. i feel so selfish..

on the other hand, discussing about life after secondary school with jasmine today during goeg period makes me think of going to JC too.. haix.. is it really gonna be that tough.? i'm not trying the be BHB here but i know that how tough studying in JC is.. i can still make it.. kinda say.. born with it.. i think i'm quite intelligent.. just not hardworking enuff.. hahax.. shameless.? hahax.. but if JC life is really study and study, i'm afraid i would not be able to live my life the way i want it to be.. i not really a study kinda person.. i prefer enjoying life, going for movies more often then sitting at home doing homework.. and i worries my chinese would pull me down.. not even sure if i wanna continue taking chinese now.. anyway, it still remains a big doubt in me.!! to go or not to go..

going to poly might not be that good a choice too.. i think we're too young to choose our "job".. choosing a poly course is directly related to deciding what job you're gonna get in future.. i dont wish to make the wrong choice and regrett for the rest of my life.. so thats a pro for JC.. because i believe after JC, i would be mature enough to make the right choice.. if i were to make a choice, my job would be challenging, flexible hours, unique, and not those kidna that needs me to face to computer everyday doing to same things.. prob something like a chef, housing agent or stockbroker would be nice.. hahax.. but i believe the future unveil itself when the time is ripe.. so not gonna think about all these right now.. just wanna concentrate on the biggest thing of my life at this moment.. o levels.! actually its kinda stupid that everyone's talking about where they wanna go after secondary sch and stuff.. cause we will only be able to make a choice after we get our results, when we know where can go with out results.. and the results will only be out in 12 mnths time.! so pals reading this.. think abt it.. makes some sense huh.? :)

alright.. enuff of grandmother literature stuff where all the chim ang mo comes flying in.. back to life.. just came back from tkd.. not that fun today.. many peeps didnt come.. so i'm all alone.. :( hahax.. got to learn my pattern today.. but its so basic lo.. i guess its only like 1 step out of 50 steps.? hahax.. just a basic block and forward stunt punch on each side wad.. hahax.. but we did learn some new blocks today.. quite cool.. haha.. and ronald is really very er xin.. ask him help me keep the handmaid ( sp? ) that a fellow clubmate of mine left behind..
he say " say please..."
i say " please "
he say " please who? "
i say " please sir "..
he say " no no.. traning time is over"
i say " please ronald"
damn sick lor.. wan me call his name.. eww.. er xin man.. hahax.. anyway.. grading's 4 lessons away.! hurray.! hahax.. i gonna get a green blet le.! provided i pass.. which i think i would la.. hahax.. i'll be attending all of the traning from now till green belt.. then consider if i still wanna go for blue tip.. saw darren doing the blur tip pattern.. nt ez man.. scared.. but 2 hrs a week isnt really that much ritex.? furthurmore i can relax during tkd too.. even though sometimes is abit sucky.. hahax.. today we did that squat down, get up, front kick turning kick den squat back down thing.. my legs were going soft.. hahax.. but overall was alright la.. after tkd went to buy startbucks.. hahax.. as usual, RF.. hahax.. forever nice.. gotta 20% discount today too.. u guys know what i mean.. hahax.. happi.! :D

afternoon went to watch hitch.. the date doctor.. hahax.. well.. i give 3.5 stars for this.. hahax.. will smith never fails to make his audience luff.. hahax.. its a comedy cum romance movie.. be sure to catch it out.! :) the lead actress kinda hot too.. :) bet guys would love her erhem.. assets.. :)

i'm gonna end of the day with a message to someone.. hahax.. who i dont think will be reading this any soon.. but just writing it down so maybe the next time she reads it.. she'll know what i mean.. ok.. it goes..

dear XX, i'm not Ngry with you or anything.. you didnt do anything wrong.. i'm just waiting for u to talk to me.. i really dont like having to start a conversation with you eveytime.. just because i dont start one.. you dont talk.. what is this man.?! i mean.. we're close friends ma.. am i so hard to start a topic with.. i dont think so ritex.? hahax.. BHB.. but anyway.. i'm waiting.. but probably by the time u read this.. we're already talking le.. hahax.. or maybe u see my blog so long u also nvr read till the end.. but.. u let history repeat itself.. u know what i'm talking abt.. hope history wont repeat itself again.. :) or maybe u scared.? i know i give of that kinda fierce "qi" hahax.. but nth's wrong.. i actually dont like not talking to u too.. provided u dont like it too.. i presume u do.. hahax.. BHB again.. cause we can so easily chat up not stop and when we're suddenly nt talking.. i'm not enjoying it myself.. so u know u're nt the only one suffering.! hahax.. i'm suffering together with you.! hahax..
frm me..
4th March 2005
11.57.26pm..

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