if ur friend.. dont even dare to talk to you.. would u consider her/him ur friend.? i'm lost.. haix.. no doubt we've wonderful memories.. still vivid in my mind.. however.. memories hold no status now.. if i'm really that impt to you.. i believe you would have that determination to start a topic ba.. why do i feel so compelled to start a topic.? i dont understand..
speaking about this.. how do u define the term "friend"..? this word is perhaps the hardest to define so far.. perhaps to to u guys.. but definitely to me.. there is a living example who sits besides me for almost every class.. someone who have not talked to me since 1+ mnth ago.. someone who i used to share the darkest of my secrets.. someone whom i used joke and have the most fun with.. overnight.. its has become _____ .. this space still stays there.. i dont know what word to fill it with.. but yea.. how do u define a friend.. i shall now pose my question..
Qns: When you have to hand in yesterday's homework in 30 mintues time and u have not completed.. X offers to let you copy her homework.. Y doesnt allow you to copy her homework, and wants to tell the teacher that you have not done your homework.. Who is your true friend.? X.? or Y.?
Qns: At a class game, you and a couple of friends are playing against another team. You are the weakest player among your friends and make the most mistakes.. W scolds you for causing the team misery and tell u your mistakes.. Z tell you its ok and gives the the widdest smile.. Who is your true friend.? W.? or Z.?
dont you think this 2 questions itself is enough to show how hard the term friend is to be explained.? i believe there shouldnt be the word "friend" in the dictonary.. for it is impossible to really define this word.. who knows.. ur best friend beside u in actually ur greatest foe.?
many of you tell me to forget abt it.. put it down.. and tell me.. you know she dont dare one la.. so u start la.. and all those stuff.. and all of u all are my close friends.. but i've repeated myself for a million times.. i will not defeat the purpose.. and u guys ask me i not suffering mehx.? well.. no doubt at first it was hell.. but now.. hahax.. nth much.. being with me for 3 yrs le.. i'm sure u all know my temper ba.. many times i want to shout at u all to stop bugging me abt it.. but i know u all mean well and i know u all very xing ku.. i'm really sorry.. if this is to be.. it is to be..
this issue had cause many things to sitr.. i dont go out with liwen and huxin as often le.. forgotten when was the last time i went out with you two.. but its because as liwen says,, she will go with hui xin.. and if i tag along.. huixin and liwen will heng nan zuo ren.. hahax.. so i betta dont tag along.. but this somehow made me and liwen and huixin kinda drift apart.. wait.. no one is to blame.. ok.. so dont feel this and that.. its juz the way things are.. so i go out with mun ning and shi hua.. sometimes ivy tags along too.. or should i say i tag along with ivy, shi hua and mun ning.. ahh... whatever.. but.. interestingly (actually its quite obvious since long ago.. jus to make things a little drama.. and its also very funny la.. ).. we may be from one clique.. but i dont seem to have much common topics with them.. so sometimes feel like left out.. but i dont mind la.. at least betta than looking at a person but not talking at all.. so my current position is kind of a loner.. hahax.. told liwen abt this today.. hahax.. its been a long time i had this feeling in my heart.. but didnt say out..
liwen, rmb one time on the bus u told me i dont seem to appear unhappy or what.. its because i dont show it.. me and ying wen both dont have much common topic with shi hua and mun ning (they are more of boy-watcher peeps, took over the boy watcher company set up by president liwen in 2003).. so she only goes with hui xin.. but i can still go with shi hua and mun ning.. so its fine with me.. f
inally getting it off my chest really feels DAMN good.. quote the jue shi hao bra " soooo goood...! " lolx..
i've gt so much more to say.. but i wanna sleep.. tonight got show to watch.! :) may liverpool beat chelsea 2-0 tonight.!
i've got 2 nice quotes to end off with:
dont cry for someone who wont cry for you.[ and that excatly what i am doing.. :) ]
every minute spent being unhappy is 60 secs lost being happy.!