Saturday, October 01, 2005
almost got back all the papers le.. even though i'm pretty sure my L1R5 will be below 20.. i'm still opting to go to work from december to march.. i've done loads of thinking before finally deciding.. most important of all.. working allows me to juggle my time as i like.. i can go to the gym consistently.. yet earn money at the same time.. i intend to work at least 20 days a month.. i've done some simple calculations.. 1 hr $5.. 1 day 8 hours.. 1 day = $40.. 1 month 20 days= $800.. 4 months =$3200.. hahax.. thats alot of money man.! hahax.. first off all.. i can clear my debts.. and settle my bills for as long as my contract ends.. then i'll save $1000.. then some money for some treats.. and the rest..? hahax.! this is the best part.. SHOPPING.! woo.! hahax.! u dont know how much shopping can boost ur energy level.! hahax.! woo.! its the best thing ever.. and going out today with liwen and huxin have made my shopping list even more massive.. hahax.! and its doesnt stop growing.! thats y i need to go gym consistently.! i need to get slimmer to wear some clothes.. no point wear nice clothes that dont look good on u right.? hahax.. so yupz.! going to work is the best choice.. if you're feeling like u've got so many things to buy.. but u've gt no money.. hahax.. i've got the best solution for u.. WORK.! however it only applies to sec 4 o lvls ppl this yr.! muahahax.. cant wait to work.! i love working.! for the sake of the money.! aha.! woo.!
gym today was good.. did enough workout.. really was a workout.. hahax.. not like the previos few which were as slack as the tension of our sch flag pole.. meet up with liwen and huixin to shop for mn's bdae pressie.! hahax.. managed to find one after quite some time.! it prefect.. totally fits the bill.! hahax.! hope u will like it mn.!
anyway.. its been 6 days since i last talked to that female dog.. i believe its gonna end tomorrow since i'll have to help her at the market.. but after work.. its back to cold war.. unless she talks to me.. she can forget about me talking to her.. i told my teacher about this thingy.. he said its good once in awhile to let them know my presence.. hahax.! made me feel so much betta.! was actually feeling a little guilty at first.. hahax.. but thanks to him.! hahax.. woots.! i'm feeling as though i did the bravest thing ever in my life.! a toast to me.. and he wished me happy children's day today.! whats that supposed to mean.?
i've been having this hugh feeling that something really bad's gonna happen between me and my friend.. and its only one friend.. some how i feel some friends arent really friends after all.. this friends issue is never ending..
sometimes i want to say what i'm feeling unhappy about.. but when i think of the result when i say it.. i dont know if i should.. previously when i tell my friends things which i think they should change.. they dont seem to have a reaction.. as in they cant seem to be bothered.. so whats the point of saying it out.. ppl say when u have something unhappy about.. its best to talk it out.. so that things will be solved.. but i really see no point in saying it out.. its either u say it out, the person's unhappy.. or u dont say it out, keep it to urself, and u urself is unahppy.. in any case.. there'll always be one who is unhappy.. some ppl say "suan le." which means forget about it.. but if everybody just forgets about everything.. wouldnt we be living in a world where everything goes so smooth it seems so unreal.? like everything's just but one facade.. and aisde from sarah, who used to be my best friend.. no one has ever told me straight in the face.. "kimberly.. u need to change ur......." no one aside for sarah and samantha.. sometimes i just hoped.. hoped really hard someone would come right up to my face and tell me there's sometime really wrong with me that i should change.! samantha has told me some things which i should change over the past 2 years.. and that's why i love her.. coz she has the gut to come up to my face and tell me what an ass i am..
somehow i feel that ppl R afraid of me.. as though i will blow their heads if they say something which i dont like to hear.. as in.. not pleasant to the ear.. though i'm hot tempered.. i am level headed enough to access a situation and call on my temper only when needed.. so please.! anything u're unhappy about.. just shoot.. i'll be grateful.. juz like one of my previous post.. i've mentioned that if everyone just keeps these unhappy thing in themselves.. it will accumulate and one day u'll hate that person.. why do so.?! just speak.!
speaking about speak.. i dispise ppl who dont have a mind of their own.. and only follow when ppl speak.. or ppl who dont have the guts to speak what they feel.. these ppl, ushould learn to speak up.. and have a mind of ur own.! thanks.. these R what we call "ren yun yi yun".. loosely translated--> ppl say wat, u also follow..
i've completed bone collector.! its the best book i've ever read.. and this is all thanks to jeffery deaver.! gawd he's an awesome author whose twists will put u in total shock.. and its so unexpected u'll stand up half-way tru reading the book, you'll stand up and applause for this man.. i'm gonna read all of his books.! and i'm thinking of buying the book myself.! hahax.. i'm currently reading mr and mrs smith.. its also a good book.. but not as good as the bone collector of course.. both books are betta than the movie version of the story.. its more detailed and intersting.. mr and mrs smith is also very descriptive.. i love these books.!
have u ever felt something sucks.. something's great.? just as long as u have feelings.. but perhaps, not being to feel anything is the worst feeling ever.? so treasure ever feeling u're feeling. be it bad or good.. coz its definitely betta than not being able to feel..
i believe the capabilities of one.. only the person himself knows best.. so whatever u do.. dont ask ppl.. who well do u think i fared.. coz only the person himself will know best who well he has fared.. be it studies, in work, as a friend.. if u got 80/100.. u ask.. did u do well..? this answer only u know best.. perhaps compared to some other ppl u might be excellent.. but is that ur best.? do u think u've done the best u could.?
its always good to dream big.. have an aim.. but do not hope of holding something u know it will never be possible..
`u know it.. i know u know..
6:55 PM
I <3 MYSELF
kimberly
25.10.89
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