simplicity;

Monday, March 20, 2006
bearing with it.

did i mention that my brother went for holidays at genting last wednesday.?
i dont think i did.
anyway i slept in his room those days he were away.
on his bed, yup yup.
i was told by lyn to beware of his armpit hair.
i'm sorry this sounds disgusting but this is something i have to mention.
not because i did actually stumble upon an armpit hair.
haha.
had i did, i dont think i will be able to even touch his bed without feeling nauseous.
but because he always sleeps with his arm above his head.
and i dont think he really scrubed his pits cause i can see some brown stain.
ok before this gets anymore gross, i shall not further describe all the other small details.
haha.

the point is that i was able to read in the middle of the night in his room with the lights on.
i can stay up as late as i want to read cause i really can concentrate.
its hard to concentrate when there's somebody else in the room who's every movement is so big and 'ungraceful'. hah.
the only sound i hear when i read is that made by the fan, and the occasional passing of a vehical on the road.
even though the computer is on, i dont get distracted by it.
for i feel the book has a greater attraction power than the computer.
unless of course there's someone online i really want to talk to.
most of the time there isnt anyone cause everyone's already in bed.
when i feel tired i just hop on to the bed beside me and get to sleep.

ok all this talk is to emphasize how good it is to have a room u can truely say is urs.
i always wanted to have a room for myself.
where i can arrange my furnitures the way i want it.
have all my posters up on the walls.
until today i havent had the luxury of that though.

i rmb about 6 yrs ago, my aunt who had always been using the room that belongs to my bro now moved away.
i was actually quite happy because i thought i will get the room.
i had a big fight with my mum cause she said the room will be my brother's.
what can i do.?
she's the boss. (ong teh in other words. haha)
so my bro sort of inherit the room from my aunt.
before that me, my bro, my sis and my maid used to sleep in another room.
with my bro sleeping on the only bed, cause he's gt a stick. (ok i made this up myself but he really was the only one who slept on a bed)
the rest of us slept on the floor with matress.
when my bro got a room, i got the bed he left behind.
how great.!

i was really angry with my mum then.
and i really wanted a room during that period of growing up.
haha.
so i thought to myself, the only way i will be getting a room is when my bro goes to army.
and by that time i will be 16.
and i will only have to room to myself for 2 years.
i wasnt happy about that cause i still have to wait 6 years and only have it for 2 years.
so i think hard.
thinking of a way where i can have a room to myself fast and forever.
then it came to my mind.!
the only way was if my brother isnt alive anymore.
then it all began.
'the polt to kill my brother' by kimberly lui.

i thought of some ways i could silence my brother.
i thought of the funeral where i will be crying cause my brother's gone.
then when the funeral's over i will throw all of his possesions.
then i will give the room a revamp.

i came up with a couple of ideas.

1. put detergent into his drink. (but i figured it wouldnt work cause he would be able to taste it, furthermore, i dont think that amount of detergent will be enought to kill him.)
2. put "xie yao" into his drink and let him shit himself to death.
3. make him angry by starting an argument (this has to be in the kitchen), he will pull out the vegetable knife and point it at me, i will allow him to make a couple of slashes on my hands, then i will take out the chopper i already have tugged in my pants at the back which is of course covered by my shirt. ~evil laugh. and kill him. when the police questions me, i will say i did it in self defence and i will not go to jail.

eventually i settled for none of the 3 ideas of course. haha.

to be continued....

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