simplicity;

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

ok i'm back to continue from my previous post.
i had to prepare for work this afternoon so yup.

as i said.
i eventually settled for none of the 3 ideas.
or else my bro wouldnt be alive and kicking right now.

things had been going well for us when i started secondary school.
as in things did improve.
we did agree on some things.
we often share jokes and all that stuff.
but the time when we were really on good terms was when he started telling me about his relationship with his girlfriend.
the problems they were facing and stuffs.
but things took a sharp turn towards the bad side last yr.
we didnt seem to see along with each other like we used to.
we didnt talk about stuffs we used to.
when i asked him if its alright to wear sneakers with shorts he would ask me to go look at the mirror.

recently new furnitures we made for my brother's room.
the whole concept was my mum's decision, we only had little or no say in it.
i didnt like the place i was allocated.
even though i had enough space to put everything i have.
i didnt have any leg room left cause all of my brother's stuffs are under the table.
and it seriously doesnt feel good to have to suffer because of someone else.
i think he is really very selfish.
i am too tired to try to name them out.

i;m feeling really fustrated now.
i just finished my vodka.
and i remebered just now when i was taking ice, the container was empty.
i always fill up the container when i see that it is not full.
my brother uses the most ice but always doesnt fill it up after he takes them.
i've told him before to fill it up.
he filled it up for the first fews day since i told him and soon after he goes back to his usual.
just now when i noticed the container was empty.
i decided not to fill it up.
i'm just so tired of his selfishness.

there was once we were playing mahjong when he took off hs hairband and asked "kimberly, where u buy this ar.?"
then i stared at him.
i didnt know he was using my hairband.
he didnt even asked and still had the cheek to show it infront of me and asked me where i bought it.
my goodness.

i just cant take it anymore.
sometime i think why hadnt i gone ahead with one of my 3 ideas.
then i wouldnt be suffering this way.

`shagged.

12:10 AM