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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
fear

what you fear is what drives you.
anyone disagree with the statement.?
haha. i think most of you will agree with it wouldnt u.?
this is a statement made my by leadership lecturer.
which i think is very true.
in my case, my character is someone who is afraid of rejection.
so ppl like me strive to have friends and be socially accepted.
so it is actually fear of being rejected that drives me.
which i think is kinda true. but only to a certain extent la.
i wont like force and all tt.
coz its kinda bo liao. lol.

imagination is a wondeful thing.
you get all kinda of creative ideas by imagining.
which is good.
but there's always two side to a coin.
sometime we shouldnt imagine too much.
we should just stick to reality.

im one person guilty of imagining too much.
haha. sometimes things are as simple as they are.
but i just tend to imagine too much and make myself happy for no reason, only to feel damn sad afterwards.
or i imagine things that makes me so sad.
amazing stuff.
just imagination can make me sad. haha.

`i thought that after you left, i'll be able to forget you.
during that year, you perhaps didnt appear in my mind that often.
but the choice came upon me to help me continue to reduce the occasions that you'll resurface into my mind or in my presence.
but i didnt take the chance.
instead i did the exact opposite.
and now im in this big piece of mess, i created with my own hands.
good job kim.!
look what you've done.
so you've got no right to complain any shit.
i really fear one day i'll just bong kui under this astonnishing pressure i created on myself.

that's what's life's all about.
living in your fear.

10:51 PM