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Friday, June 22, 2007
F&F

left grace's house this morning to take a cab home to sleep.
so when i managed to get a cab.
i saw from the window before i stepped into the cab the time on the meter was 5-59.
then i was thinking i was so damn suay cause i'll be charged midnight charge.
THEN... when i sat down the clock on the meter was 6-00.
then the uncle pressed the start button.
i think he got a shocked at the time.
most prob he was thinking he should've pressed the button a few seconds faster.!
lucky me.! (((=

and so tonning at grace's house was QUITE productive, i would say.
as compared to slacking at home.
even though our report's more or less completed.
i still feel it isnt completed.
and i hate doing appedix la.
and all the farking referencing i've gotta do esp for websites.

anyway.
slept from 7 all the way to 3.
was woken up by james' call to ask if we're going to kbox. -_-
so sad.
dont think i'll still wanna go even if we've already planned long ago.
too tired.
and blogging now i already feel tired.
and nobody wants to play dota. )))=
they're either studying, going out or doing project.

so so so.
you talked to me on msn yesterday.
you whom i used to think i would consider a good friend.
you whom after so many times assured me i am your greatest friend, and that you always talk to your friends about me.
you whom i believed, even though i was always doubtful.
you whom our common friend told me you also told her she was your greatest friend, and that you always talk to your friends about her.
you whom months ago i've already decided not to consider a good friend.
you whom i've been telling my friends i dont already consider you a good friend, and i dont even want to talk about.
and then you came talking to me, as if we're good friends.
sometimes i really dont know, what's our friendship like.
what is our friendship based on.
you whom i would dare say, i really cared alot about, and always treated you well.
but even during times when we were exceptionally close, i always felt you don't treat me really well, and that you take me for granted.
which is also probably why i dont have any kind of solid trust in you, which is why when you dont contact me, i got this strong feeling maybe we're not that close.
i guess i never told you how i feel im being treated for granted, how i think you dont treat me as your close friend even though u claim you do.
its just, i really cannot feel the sincerity of your actions.
now im thinking if you'll ask me out after u read this.
and im thinking of the things you would tell me, maybe to assure me once again.
maybe you might even tell me you feel exactly the same of me that i feel of you?
who knows.
but if you're going to talk to me about this.
please think through what you are going to tell me, and make sure that's how you feel.
i believe then, i'll finally be able to feel your sincerity.

4:36 PM