simplicity;

Tuesday, September 18, 2007
thinking...

initially i planned t go market early in e morning t get e sting ray, sotongs, fish, and chicken wings cause not v nice t ask my parents t carry them home.
but they wanted me t work at 10 instead of 12 tmr.
and im not sleeping yet, so maybe i'll go on wed morning instead.
dont think i'll have e energy t go tmr anyway.

so work was pretty sucky man.
i dont know why business is so bad, seriously.
first two days of work was crazy, i kept thinking we needed more ppl cause it was soooo bz.
but we only have 2 tables occupied today.?
so sorta did some inventory check thingy.
quite amazing they dont have inventory check, and we're only doing it now.!
1 yr after it opened.?
anyway i think i've got a lot t learn, ok it should be i've got a lot t learn, and i would say im willing and i want t, so im hoping things will get better come november.
shallnt say it here thou.

because biz was so bad they sent me home at 4, which meant i only worked 4 hrs.
but its not so bad, cause i thought i learnt a lot today just being there even thou bz was so bad.
so i wenta meet des and ari at white sands, they were there t check prices for e stuffs we're gonna need for chalet.
i got Kar Mun along too.
but by e time i reached they alr completed the price checking thingy.
so it was good t meet up with e peeps, esp ari cause i havent seen her since last day of exams.
such a pity we couldnt hang out longer.
but i finally gt t hug ari. (=
so glad chalet's coming.!

went t Kar Mun's hse t chill till 10.?
was supposed t take 53 but i think i got influenced by ari and got some of her bimbo essence stuck onto me, i wenta take 58. -_-
but anyway on e way home i thought a lot. like A LOT.
about a lot of things.
like stuffs im troubled with at e moment.
and why im working so hard for, cause lyn asked me why i chiong so hard for, made me think a little.
but i know why im working for hard for, and i think its e right decision i made.
anyway basically its more about where i think i will be in future.
yeaps.

t end off.
this is what irene ang said for her interview in today's papers tt made me think quite a little.
"if you don't know who you are, you become who people think you are, and you wont be happy"

im asking myself why im smoking.
im definitely passed e phase of thinking smoking is cool, but i dont know why im smoking now.
is it because its become a habit.? or is there some other reason tt i do not know of.?
im asking myself if i have a mind of my own.
im asking myself who am i actually.
im asking myself who i want t be in future, and where i want t stand.
i guess im asking too much. heh.
alrights off t sleep.

12:19 AM