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Tuesday, October 09, 2007
bear with me pls, i beg.

im trying very hard here.
it has never been so difficult before.
because this time im doing it from internal motivation, all coming from within myself t stop smoking man.
not because of any other people, its just purely self discipline.
and boy is this tough.
im glad i've lasted for 48 hours alr.
but its gonna be really hard keeping this going.
i just hope im gonna succeed this time round.
im hoping i can quit totally, like not even social.
but seriously its gonna be really tough, i can feel it alr, the moment i told myself im gonna do it.
freak why did i make myself do this in the first place.
fuck.

finally got my pay today.
and i treated myself t a glass of house red after work.
and boy does it suck.
no volume at all, no wonder its vin de tables.
NTUC has AOC wines for 30+, cheap huh.?
at least i felt better after e wine.
and its good t drink a gls of wine a day yea.?

and i found out zoe's getting paid 7 an hour, but im not gonna request for 7 too cause i want them t raise my pay cause they think i deserve it not because i asked for it.
and im not trying t quit smoking cause matthew said he'll raise my pay if i do.
who would be happy getting a pay raise for doing smth good that's gt nth associated with ur work. not me surely, as much as i need the money.

suddenly i feel i kinda miss chatting with jeremy teo.
esp sec 3 times when we were pretty close.
of course i no longer hold a grudge against justin or jasmine, but i wish so much that he didnt know, we prob would still be really close friends now.

once again, bear with me pls.
if u've alr been giving in t me, just cont pls.
esp now.
i really need it.
thanks.

11:16 PM